Friday, 13 November 2009
Its all about Love and Hate
The process of getting to know new people is amazingly intriguing. People are capable of surprising you when you are at your unsuspecting best. This is the time when you're fairly vulnerable and at the same time attempt to be guarded. Its the uncertainty of emotions, of reactions, of assumptions, that make this process so mysteriously appealing.
I have started noticing two main emotions around me. Love and Hate. The reason I use such strong words is because, even if its just the start of these emotions, like seeds, I predict and firmly believe that it takes such a matter of time for these emotions to intensify and justify the names. I'm noticing positivity and negativity all around me, and luckily, the positivity outshines the negativity by a staggering margin.
Small things make my heart warm up these days, or go cold. Like, the brush of a guy's finger, gently against those of the girl he likes. The soft touch, the look in their eyes, the moment they share, the smiles which say everthing, the warmth that they exude, which makes you feel like you're intruding on them by just looking at their harmless smiles. Its love. It makes me smile to look at. It gives me a mushy feeling, and it makes me believe in the magic of love even more.
Then there are the sights which make my heart go cold. Like, walking back home, I witness a girl running, being chased closely by a guy, who tries to get hold of her. He finally grabs her arm, and she stops, and looks back, with tears in her eyes, pushes him away, turns around and walks straight ahead. The guy stands there, the look of helplessness clear on his face, and then yells, out, "Its bye then, please try not to hate me too much." Then he watches her walk away, and slowly, turns and walks in the other direction. I stood there, a little distance from them, and watch them both go in different directions, and become very aware of the fact that I just witnessed a relationship end. Sad, is the only way that moment can be described.
These new emotions are around me all the time, and I'm just savouring them all in my mind. Keeping a collage of memories, of moments, which make up for some interesting thinking, and some much needed perspective to life.