Tuesday 16 December 2008

Reminiscing again...

It has been a while now, but why does it feel like time has stopped and I’ve entered a vacuum? A phase of my life has ended, and I keep repeating this to myself, trying to live a new life, with new goals to look forward to, new people to meet. But what do I do with what I’ve left behind? Those memories that haunt me day in and day out refuse to leave, and I’m tired of battling with them. The spirits of my past cling on to my already troubled brain and have engraved themselves in the emptiness of my life.

Today, of all the days, I want to be where I was once happy. It’s my best friend’s birthday today. At every special occasion, since we’ve known each other, we’ve been together, with all our other friends and shared our joys. We’ve laughed till we cried, and talked till the wee hours of the morning. We’re taken pictures, which now remind me of the times we had, and wrote cards which brings smiles to my deprived eyes even now. It’s his birthday today, and I cannot be there to give him a hug and tell him that I’m going to love him more each year and be there for him whenever he needs me.

I miss going shopping with the others for his birthday present, and spend hours trying to figure out what he would like. I miss walking around Milan, going to each and every store worth its name to find the perfect gift, for my perfect best friend. I miss the planning and the excitement, I miss being a part of all the buzz. I miss being physically present for all the occasions when my friends meet up and relive the good ol’ times. I miss seeing the look on someone’s face, when they open they open their birthday presents. I miss the toasting, for someone’s good health. I miss the birthday cakes, the candles, the decoration, the games. I miss it all, and so much more.
I can only send my wishes across, and hope that, sometime in the future, we’ll be together again, to be a part of each other’s lives.

Happy Birthday A!

8 comments:

Rambunctious WhipperSnapper said...

Come out, come out, wherever you are.....

They are people missing you, ya know......

DewdropDream said...

awwww... hugs. There will be birthday parties to plan and presents to buy for other newer friends worry not :) chin up!

DewdropDream said...

You've been blogrolled! Come out of hiding now!

Neha said...

Say Helloooo People... I AM BACK :D!! A new post coming up very soon!

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